Sunday, 15 April 2018

Becoming too dependent on other people for your happiness

Recently I have come to the conclusion that I am far too dependant on other people when it comes to my happiness. I genuinely hate being on my own, which is something I didn't think I would ever feel.

I spent a whole week with Andy recently, him staying at mine, us commuting home from work together, talking for more than five minutes a day (which is our usual phone conversation, consisting of '"how was your day at work?", "fine, yours?", "yeah was ok, you going gym tonight?", "yeah, you?", "yup, do you have any news?", "no not today", "ok have a nice evening" -  basically because neither of us like to talk on the phone), and actually getting to eat dinner together. It was so nice, but the week after he left I was so lost. I found myself feeling pretty shit, even though I am so used to not living with him and only seeing him at weekends. The week he was here I suppose I had something to look forward to after work, and it made the days quicker, I was overall much happier *cringe*.


I suppose the days of feeling shit made me realise that I need to stop depending on other people for my own happiness - I am more than capable of being happy on my own, and deep down I genuinely do enjoy spending time with myself. We should all be happy in our own company, and yes - we should look forward to spending time with loved ones, but our happiness shouldn't rely on that. It definitely has something to do with a fear of being lonely - really I am never truly alone, I live with my family and am always on my phone texting.

I’m sure I cannot be the only person who feels like this, so please do let me know if you have ever felt like this! I’m definitely going to work on not relying so much on other people to be happy myself, and make plans for after work that don’t necessarily involve me seeing friends - things I can do on my own. Are there any things you guys recommend doing on your own? - I'd love ideas!
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Monday, 2 April 2018

My Journey To Feeling Alive

Wow, what a dramatic title - what this post is really about is my journey to not falling asleep on my commute to work (not quite such an exciting title though).



As I like to mention, quite frequently, I am unable to stay awake on my morning commute to work - no amount of Netflix, reading of the Metro, or listening to the Jonas Brothers will keep me awake. I get a very decent amount of sleep every night, around 8 hours, so it has been a challenge to figure out what I can do to make myself feel more alive and awake.


Thankfully (hearing all my prayers apparently...) the lovely team at Pegasus PR got in touch to offer me a box of sleep related goodies in conjunction with National Sleep Awareness Week - yes I know this was a few weeks ago now, but I had to give these products a go before raving about them to you guys. The main product that the box was promoting was the new Benenox Overnight Recharge, a combination of honey, Sustamine and Vitamin B6, which when taken before bed helps to support a good sleep, and supposedly makes you feel more awake in the morning. I was sceptical, I'll put it that way, but nonetheless super keen to try anything and everything that could possibly help with my annoying situation.


After taking Benenox for a week, I really noticed a change in the way I felt in the mornings. Some days I did still fall asleep on the train to work, but overall I felt much less fatigued, and felt like my quality of sleep had improved - I didn't wake up once in the night (possibly a negative as one of my favourite things is waking up at 5am and realising I still have an hour and a half left of sleep). I've also noticed the benefit of having a Clipper 'Snore and Peace' tea before bed, which also came in the gorgeous box gifted to me. I hate normal tea (I know....), and am generally super fussy with herbal teas but my oh my this tea is actually yummy. I'm awful at describing flavours but it's essentially Chamomile and Lavender, and it really does make me feel sleepy - how it works, I don't know.


You get around 9 uses in one bottle of Benenox, and it retails at £9.99 - so not the cheapest thing to be buying, but I think for me it is helping me just that little bit. I do need to get into the basic routine of reading every night before bed rather than watching Netflix or scrolling through Instagram, I think this would definitely help also. If you have any other tips and tricks for feeling more alive in the mornings, please let me know!

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A Makeup Revolution Base

If you haven't heard everyone raving about the Makeup Revolution Conceal & Define concealer, or the new release of their foundation stick, then honestly, where have you been?! I gave in to the hype (as I so often do...), and here is the low-down on these bad boys *hint, you will probably want to buy these after reading this*.


The first time I wore this foundation, incidentally when I took these photos, I did not use primer under the foundation stick, but I can confirm it does look (and stay) a little better with a primer underneath. Applying the foundation itself is a dream, I apply directly from the stick to my face, and draw on a few lines. It blends in amazingly, since the formula is really creamy and blendable. In comparison to the L'Oreal foundation stick which I am a massive fan of, this one actually blends so much easier, and the coverage is a little heavier. The picture below shows my face with one side wearing the foundation, and the other side is just my bare skin.



As you can see, the coverage is pretty damn good, and it doesn't make my skin look super dry which a lot of foundations can do. It does highlight my large pores though, however when I do use a primer underneath, this obviously helps. I wouldn't recommend this foundation for anyone with oily skin though, it is 100% designed for people with dry-normal skin, I have heard reports of it literally slipping of peoples faces who have a more oily face than I do (of course I cannot confirm this, but this is what I have heard). I wear shade F10 for reference!


Now the concealer, ohhh the concealer...it's amazing. If you like a full coverage concealer, something to really hide those late nights or chocolate fuelled spots, this is the one. Very much like the foundation, it blends in easily. The only downside I have is that it does settle into the lines under my eyes, even after baking it - but most concealers that I wear do this (anyone have any tips how to stop this from happening?). I actually have this in two shades C8 and C10, C8 is perfect for highlighting, but I would definitely use C10 to cover any blemishes. If you like the Collection Lasting Perfection concealer, but find the shade range awful and the formula a little drying, this is your saviour. 


I took an uncomfortably up close picture of my skin so you can all see the foundation/concealer duo, and the way that they sit on the skin. You can see where it highlights my pores and where the concealer bunches up into my fine lines, but realistically who is going to be coming up that close to your face (that would judge you for this at least)? I have never ever found a concealer that doesn't go into my fine lines, so this doesn't bother me one bit. 


 Overall, I recommend both products, they are super affordable - and although the concealer in particular is very hard to get hold of (all down to Holly Boon) I would advise all my dry-normal skin gals to go on the hunt for these bad boys - you'll thank me, I promise!



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