Sunday, 11 March 2018

Lets Chat: realising I can't do everything, body confidence and Instagram...

I've realised recently that I fucking love talking shit...my boyfriend will agree with me on this one. And what better place to share my word vomit than here, with you guys, if you want to hear about what my current thoughts and feelings are anyway.

I've recently realised that I do not have the time or the energy to do everything I want, or everything that is put in front of me. Juggling work, my friendships, my relationship, spending time with family and my blog has been a serious struggle for me, and I've just reached a point where I have realised that in order to succeed in one of these,  a few of these are going to have to take a backseat (which sucks, and should most definitely not have to be the case). Since I haven't been in my job for a long time, and obviously I spend the majority of my day at work, work has definitely taken priority at the moment, and I do find it a little hard to switch off in the evenings, panicking that I have forgotten to do something, or that I've done something wrong. My fitness has most definitely taken a hit, from going to the gym 5/6 times a week down to 4 has genuinely had an impact on my body and my energy levels - if anyone has any tips on juggling gym and work, please hit me up! 

My poor old blog has also taken a hit, with a lack of high quality and aesthetically pleasing images, and good quality writing, that isn't just my words vommed out on a page. I wish I could spend two or three hours a day on my blog, but when I already get up at 6:30am, and get home around 7:30pm, there just really isn't time. How people hold down a full time job, and daily posting is absolutely beyond me, please share your secrets!


Anyway, I suppose my overall point is that it's ok to not have time to do everything, and you shouldn't feel like a failure when you are unable to achieve everything you want to. I, especially with my blog, feel immensely shit if I miss an upload one week, but sometimes I just don't have the ideas, or the time to write and photograph, and realistically I don't feel like anyone is hugely missing out, except for myself. I think writing a proper schedule for my weeks is definitely on the cards, and solidifying two days a month where I can get all my photographs done for all my months posts is probably a very wise idea.

Since I briefly mentioned the gym, let me have a quick old ramble about body confidence. I feel like my body confidence has dropped significantly from how I was feeling at the end of Summer, before I moved back home. I was genuinely happy with where my body was at, and although I wanted to grow more of a booty, everything else was pretty much ok, and I felt good. Maybe it's just a winter thing? I suppose the increase in Instagram fitspo accounts I'm following definitely correlates with my feelings on my own body. As my fave Carly Rowena says, if you look at the pictures and they don't make you feel good about yourself, you should probably unfollow the account - some advice I am definitely going to be taking on board. We should all be happy with the bodies that we have, especially if they are healthy, but sometimes that can be much easier said than done when there are these other ideas of 'perfection' online.

Enough of my ramblings on - sometimes I feel like I just need to type out what random thoughts are currently in my head, so I hope you have enjoyed having a delve around my brain!

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